10-14-2016, 05:24 AM
I have been saying to myself for a while that I would start my success blog here but haven't had the time or been waiting for more definitive success. However I have gotten so much good from tbis forum that I don't want to hold back anymore in case anyone else can be inspired by my journey.
I started half heartedly maybe 2 or 3 years ago, but lived in a very dark apartment and was generally stressed out from finances so although I had time I was fairly depressed. But even though I didn't practice I practically scoured this forum which prepared me with the knowledge for a running start when I moved and completely turned my life inside out for the better. I will give more details in future blogs about what I learned here. With that background...
I officially started my healing journey when I moved May 28 2016 to a new, brighter (literally) future. I had no job so I had no reason requiring glasses for the first 2.5 months. This time was well spent relaxing, gazing at trees and in the distance and being incredibly self analytical about how I was using and holding my eyes. My last prescription is -5.25 in my left and right eyes.( A small success that made it easier to know this was the correct course of action is my right eye eas -5.75 until I stopped wearing glasses for 3 weeks a couple years ago. ) i also have astigmatism -2.5 @ 180 degrees in both eyes.
What I see now is ridiculously better than when I moved, and I will he getting an eye exam before the end of this month. I used to see nothing, things moved and danced when I looked at them, with the image rising up and moving side to side. I have had many headaches since starting to let my eyes relax and see on their own accord, but I attribute i mostly to my nervous system retracing. It has been the same pain as when I first waa given glasses. Within a couple days of this pain I always have improvement.
Where I am now is the images move up much less, I can read at times signs from 10-15 feet away when I could only pretend before, although the clear images usually is not where I know it to be. Usually it rises above but the distance is maybe 10% of how bad it used to be. At some point I will make a picture in Photoshop to show what I mean. It is the intense perfect clarity that convinced me my eyes could be healed regardless of where that image moves.
The biggest improvement has been in my self image. I have never seen myself with my own two naked eyes before. I did not realize how much that affected me. I am still not clear in the mirror 2 feet away, but I am no longer a shapeless blur. I have eyes, a nose a mouth...and sometimes for a split second it will become clear and I get to enjoy my pupils and irises.
I notice details now like never before. My eyes are not just brown, there is so much colot and variation! I can get lost in the patterns of my kittens' fur, i can look at and enjoy a tree for hours. My impatience in life continues to melt away as I give myself the time to look and enjoy without judgement but always with wonder and awe at the world around me. Every chance I get, which is almost always unless I am very tired, I pay attention to what I am looking at, how I am looking at it and allowing my eyes to move of their own accord as I focus my attention on different things.
I am very excited but also very nervous to see what my prescription is. At the same time, I already know my eyes are better because I can see it. I don't know what to expect but that is half the fun. I think of this journey, with its pain and discomfort, as a game because that is the easiest way to stay permanently engaged. Life is a game to me, after all :
Details and specifics to come!
I started half heartedly maybe 2 or 3 years ago, but lived in a very dark apartment and was generally stressed out from finances so although I had time I was fairly depressed. But even though I didn't practice I practically scoured this forum which prepared me with the knowledge for a running start when I moved and completely turned my life inside out for the better. I will give more details in future blogs about what I learned here. With that background...
I officially started my healing journey when I moved May 28 2016 to a new, brighter (literally) future. I had no job so I had no reason requiring glasses for the first 2.5 months. This time was well spent relaxing, gazing at trees and in the distance and being incredibly self analytical about how I was using and holding my eyes. My last prescription is -5.25 in my left and right eyes.( A small success that made it easier to know this was the correct course of action is my right eye eas -5.75 until I stopped wearing glasses for 3 weeks a couple years ago. ) i also have astigmatism -2.5 @ 180 degrees in both eyes.
What I see now is ridiculously better than when I moved, and I will he getting an eye exam before the end of this month. I used to see nothing, things moved and danced when I looked at them, with the image rising up and moving side to side. I have had many headaches since starting to let my eyes relax and see on their own accord, but I attribute i mostly to my nervous system retracing. It has been the same pain as when I first waa given glasses. Within a couple days of this pain I always have improvement.
Where I am now is the images move up much less, I can read at times signs from 10-15 feet away when I could only pretend before, although the clear images usually is not where I know it to be. Usually it rises above but the distance is maybe 10% of how bad it used to be. At some point I will make a picture in Photoshop to show what I mean. It is the intense perfect clarity that convinced me my eyes could be healed regardless of where that image moves.
The biggest improvement has been in my self image. I have never seen myself with my own two naked eyes before. I did not realize how much that affected me. I am still not clear in the mirror 2 feet away, but I am no longer a shapeless blur. I have eyes, a nose a mouth...and sometimes for a split second it will become clear and I get to enjoy my pupils and irises.
I notice details now like never before. My eyes are not just brown, there is so much colot and variation! I can get lost in the patterns of my kittens' fur, i can look at and enjoy a tree for hours. My impatience in life continues to melt away as I give myself the time to look and enjoy without judgement but always with wonder and awe at the world around me. Every chance I get, which is almost always unless I am very tired, I pay attention to what I am looking at, how I am looking at it and allowing my eyes to move of their own accord as I focus my attention on different things.
I am very excited but also very nervous to see what my prescription is. At the same time, I already know my eyes are better because I can see it. I don't know what to expect but that is half the fun. I think of this journey, with its pain and discomfort, as a game because that is the easiest way to stay permanently engaged. Life is a game to me, after all :
Details and specifics to come!