Several years ago, I participated in 2 intense week-long workshops with Peter Grunwald, who developed the Eyebody Method of vision improvement. Peter improved his own vision from -10 or so to 20/20. He claimed that one of the main practices which helped him do this was walking after dark around his undeveloped property in New Zealand, letting his eyes learn to take in whatever light was available.
One summer evening during Peter’s workshop, he guided us as we walked in pairs over a mountain path in the dark. There was so little light that at one point I panicked and wailed that I couldn’t see a thing! Peter took my hand and had me look up to the stars far overhead, clearly visible through the thick trees which surrounded us. I journalled about this humbling experience later, wondering, since Fear is an energy of constriction, had it been constricting my sight all these years?
Growing up in thick strong eyeglasses, I used to need lots of light to see. After dark I felt afraid and helpless. “Nighttime myopia” is being unable to see far after dark, and I think this has a lot to do with fear. When I finally admitted I had a problem with seeing after dark, I practiced walking around my neighborhood in the evening well after the sun had set. This was exciting, and I felt adventurous and brave, like an explorer. The neighborhood sidewalk is seeming more well-lit lately, even where one of the street-lights is blown out, so I think my eyes are letting in more light. And when I go indoors again, the single dim floor-lamp I left on seems so bright!
This time of the year is the darkest in the Northern Hemisphere, as we’re only a day or 2 away from the winter solstice here. I’m committed to appreciating the light, even when there’s not much of it, rather than being sad there’s not more. When I come downstairs in the early morning, the 2 white cars which are usually parked across the street seem to gleam and smile at me in the low light. Not too long ago, when I looked out the front window I hardly looked past the end of my short driveway! I thought I couldn’t see anything farther than that.
You may have heard me say “The more I look, the more I see”. I’m adding a corollary: the more light I accept, the more light there is! Enjoy your own light-filled shining winter holiday.