This afternoon I participated in an EFT (“tapping”) webinar with my teacher Carol Look, where she talked about asking for and accepting guidance. Many people are afraid of the guidance which might come in, since it could say something they don’t want to hear and act on. What if guidance tells them to leave their job or marriage, or to start losing weight NOW? During the call I had the realization that I’m hesitant to completely open myself up to “signs” or other forms of guidance because I think it will come in like a sledgehammer, pushing at me and bossing me around.
It makes sense that I should feel this way, since I had an overly strict and demanding parent, as well as a few dictator bosses. Yet I don’t really think angels or spirit guides are going to yell at me! I’ll do more work around releasing any resistance to receiving, so I’m not missing input which would help me. With my focus on vision, and wanting to let in the clear images so I can see as well as possible, I wondered if I’d uncovered another form of resistance to clear sight. Am I reluctant to fully open myself up to crystal clear sight because it might overwhelm me?
A few years ago I wrote about being overwhelmed by auditory input, and the parallels to vision, here. That doesn’t mean I’ve solved this. Even hardcore medical professionals now are reluctantly admitting the role of emotions in health or disease: long-held anger can lead to high blood pressure or heart problems, resentment can lead to arthritis. Yet I don’t see these as “problems” as much as the body speaking to us in the only language it has, trying to convey a message so we’ll change our behavior or situation and be more comfortable.
We can carry habits forward long past the time when they served us. Maybe there was a time in my earlier life when I did need to restrict the input coming in, whether it was unhelpful “guidance” or visual input of scary scenes. So this tendency to crimp the hose to slow down the incoming stimuli was protecting me! Yet now I have more choices and much more autonomy — I can speak up or leave a situation which doesn’t suit me, I don’t have to “take it”. I’m thinking it’s finally time to let go of the habit of not letting myself see, because it might be “too much”. I’ll do further energy work around this, including EFT.
With some friends and clients, I’ve noticed emotional patterns which are different than my own related to their vision restriction. Some people can see in the distance fine, yet cannot look in a relaxed way when reading and often get headaches. They may think focusing on numbers or letters or close-up details is difficult, and feel “Don’t make me do this!”. I’ve seen other people who are sad and discouraged about their vision, expecting it to get worse and worse. I’ve heard people say they feel safer with glasses on, and joke that you’re not supposed to hit someone who’s wearing glasses! I relate most closely to those who are anxious or worried, as that’s been my pattern, and I’ve done a lot of work to be optimistic and positive about my vision.
My EFT teacher Carol Look created an audio program years ago centered on eyesight, with each portion focused on a different emotion, and tapping sequences for that. “All this anger got stuck in my eyes” or “I was too afraid to look at it” are a few I remember. I’ve found the most benefit with EFT for my own eyesight is when I tap on a specific incident, not a general feeling. For example: “I was scared when the whole kindergarten class stared at me, and I wanted to disappear”.
Take a minute and explore how you feel about your seeing. If the feeling is negative, does it still make sense now, or is it left over from the past? If it doesn’t suit you, can you let it go? You deserve to see everything you want to see, as clearly as you want to see it.